- Neil Hilborn (via oppen-heimer-style)
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother with stuff. The entire world is just a mix of gray. I want so bad to be happy, to go out and have fun. But the overwhelming part of me wants to stay in bed. Sleep. Forget about all the shitty things that have happened in the past few months. Even in my sleep, I can’t escape it. I have nightmares about what’s happened. All of my unanswered questions eat away at me. The worst part? I keep it all to myself. I’ll just smile and continue helping people with their problems, making them happy. I’ll just continue to sit here with a brave face and pretend I’m not falling apart.